here have this shirtless dave that couldn’t actauly live because he is too thin.
now i have a big ton weigh’ng announcement to make
i’m not gunna say this in a text post so i can use a read more because i want any of my 17 followers who care to see this. i’m not saying any of what i’m about to say to get your sympathy and help. I am not fine but think that i can be self-sufficient about fixing this the reason why i want you all to see this is that i feel you should have the right to know and i think that knowing that you guys know is going to help a little.
what i’m trying to say is that i’m having hardcore teenager angst and a few other things as while. the first problem is that i really don’t know anything about myself. i seem to be changing all the time and since i am one of those people who takes a ton of personality tests i get to see it happening. one week i’ll take a homestuck title test and be the seer of time the next week i’ll end up taking the same test again and be the seer of void or the rogue of mind. yesterday i toke that test and got the knight of space today i took it again( i really am addicted) and got the seer of mind (excuse me dear test, i am not terezi), seer and knight are titles that i would say are nearly opposites in terms of personality as i see it but this isn’t really the problem since those test are super inaccurate if you are unsure about yourself or just have a hard time being honest because like me you might see who you are as something that can be changed and worked for and that is, all in all, still a work in progress. the problem is that I’ve changed myself too much and thought about who i am too much and that i need to turn away from self-study which is hard to do on the internet with all it’s addicting tests so i’m going to try giving up my computer, just for a few weeks (maybe just one) too see who it goes.
this may seem a bit drastic (it doesn’t does it :<) but there are also other problems that my computer causes here is a handy super organised (no) list
eyes arrrgggh: i have sensitive eyes and i really should be wearing glasses but i never do because they are pretty much magnifying glasses for light and ya. the point here is that looking a a computer screen a lot is causing me serious eyepain and a constant headache
distraction from other problems: the internet muddles my mind and stops me from seeing what is wrong with me or my life that is causing me problem .i have problems, tinsy identity crisis as i alreay said and also some really bad depression (don’t what to explain everything but this is terriable depression and it just evolves to keep up with me and it get worse and lets just say it sucks and i am some degree of sad and confused all the time, really all the time. the sad part is not actauly the problem as the right kind of *heartbreak* is kind of a good thing to me, the problem is the confused all the time thing)
quality of sleep: i like sleeping deeply a having vivid nightmares, light from computers or other things screws up my preciousness nightmares, this is anoying a terrible and actauly a real problem
that is it, that is all or most of the problem i’m having right now. i’m sorry this was such a long post but thank you for reading it, now you know why i’m going to be inactive for a while and also you get to know about all my *horrifying* purrblems
ABSCOUNDING TO BED TIME